drunk post

It had to be done some time.
I'm not really drunk, but I have had a couple glasses of wine.
It's so funny, lol I just feel super relaxed and it's been such a wonderful day.
I'm all warm and fuzzy, it's a nice feeling.
Anyways, off to cuddle my wonderful boyfriend, ops, I mean fiance, and watch Bowling for Columbine.

yay!

feeling sooooo much better today.
Decided to hell with everything else, I was just going to chill out and spend some time playing with Ivy and going with the flow, and we've had a really great day. She is so funny, and so much fun, even more so when I'm not occupied thinking about all the other things I should be doing. I am now even more looking forward to summer and just being able to hang out with her and enjoy life (and write lol).
She's still really madly in love with the webcam lol I turn it on and she watches herself do all sorts of things, ripping up paper, jumping on the bed in here, singing, playing, anything lol she loves being the centre of attention. I don't know how many times a day she says to me 'look at me mama, look at me!'.
I'm really just so happy today, lol Simon can text me from work which I love, and he can email as well, which he will probably start doing soon lol like, when his cell credit runs out. I was looking back today on all the emails we used to send to each other, some before we got together and quite a few after. Such good times, lol I miss having that kind of contact with him and am really looking forward to getting it back.
And I cannot wait to be his wife. I am so looking forward to marrying him, to us officially being a family, to adding to that family as well . Bliss.

well

This morning started out terribly, I was a total blithering mess for the greater part of it.
I think (think) I have mostly managed to pull myself out of it, and lets hope that it lasts! As I have said several times today - there is just too much to do to fall apart right now.
I know that what I could really do with is writing, creatively, for even a little while. But I am not sure I can force myself to stop cleaning/doing homework for long enough to write. Maybe later tonight, when the little one is asleep and the house is quiet and tidy.
I always feel like I am putting writing off lately, and I have to keep telling myself that no, it's not really putting it off, it's just that there are other things that need my focus first and foremost. I just hope that's the truth, I really do, and that once all this study mess is over writing can once again dominate my spare time.
I'm pretty sure it's the case, but I guess that is a natural fear to have. It was kind of like my fear after Nano - that I only had one 'novel' in me, that I might not be able to do it again and I was so happy that I proved myself wrong on that one with SoCNoC, and I am sure I will prove it again with NaNo'07.
Anyways, I better go and finish mowing the lawn before it rains.
And the day started out so sunny.

Roll on daylight savings....

Seriously, I feel like everyone but me (and Simon) has already adjusted to daylight savings, weeks before it's begun. I'm sick of animals and children waking me up before 6am, I just want to get my sleep....
It's so light here at that time of the day though, and the birds are being all noisy, I can hardly blame them for thinking that it's the right time to start bugging me, if only they could all just get up and feed themselves... ahhh now that would be bliss.
The reality is though, that if it wasn't for all the things making noise at me at that time of the day, I'd probably be totally ready to get up. There is just something about creatures needing things from you which sometimes makes you want to hide. I often forget to have breakfast til about 10, simply because I'm feeding Ivy and the animals, getting her changed and dressed, washing the dishes, organizing the house and everything else.
It's tiring sometimes. Today, I'm tired. And I have an essay to write.

Change

Well today is Simon's last day at his current job, he'll have his first weekend off in months and months this weekend, the first of many more to come.
It seems weird, I think it will probably feel that way for awhile. New days of work, new hours of work, new pay period to adjust to. It really kind of feels like it's an 'end of an era' type thing, although I am not sure it warrants that much emphasis. But our whole lives are going to change because of this, I can feel that, I just don't know the details lol.

one down

four to go!!
Feels good to know that atleast one is finished, and only a day and a half past the deadline I had set for myself. Now to move onto the next one and hopefully get it completed next week. I feel like if I can get that one and the next done by the end of next week then there is a chance I can get the other two done and even pass all of them. Passing is the goal, I had to remind myself of that today when I got the results of one of my other assignments. It was a B, nothing to get upset about, but I didn't feel like I had done well enough.
Reminder to self - you aren't planning to do masters anymore, you're not studying next year, and it doesn't matter what your grades are as long as you pass.

Roll on Summer

I'm beginning to feel like it's coming, which is so nice, I had no idea I would feel this way about its approach. Perhaps it's because I know now I won't have to spend all my time looking for a part time job that will fit in with everyone else, I can just enjoy things as they come.
I'm so looking forward to a multitude of BBQ's on the deck, a cold beer in the afternoon, hours spent at the beach, many swimming trips, trying to teach Ivy how to make daisy chains on the lawn, showing her the joys of kite flying. I mean, this is going to be one amazing summer, I can just feel it.