Sunday. 9th

Wow, I have blown 8 days of the month already, thats pretty scary!

The happy news: I'm feeling more motivated than I have in a long time. I think, thanks to some alternate opinions on whats going on with me and getting back into some exercise. I feel more together at the very least, and that helps. And I am loving adding some words to my WIP!! I really do adore the story, unfortunately I thought up some massive time killers that could be 'useful' for it... but they are time wasters.... so I am going to try and avoid, even though it would be pretty fun lol.

The not so happy news: the laptop is now lasting only like 20minutes sans powercord. That is not long!!! I took it to bed last night, thinking yeah no worries, I can get to 7k easily before it dies.... well, no such luck, in fact I don't think I even got to 6500... It is pretty tragic, unfortunately there is nothing which can be done about this. I have to wait and hopefully something will come up - Simon says that I don't really need a laptop, but then, on the other hand, there are ones out there that are BETTER than my computer - maybe what I really need is to get one of those and forget about the upgrades? I know having two computers is pretty wasteful (two just for me that is) but I have found it really helpful to only write on the other one, and to game/waste time on this one. When it comes down to it, I find it impossible to get focused on writing when I am sitting right next to Simon and hes gaming... and both of the PC's are on the same desk, we're side-by-side gamers (very cute), but not very helpful for the writing thing. I like sitting next to him when we play games, I don't want that to change. But I really do need to be able to escape his lovely presence in order to focus on the writing side of things. Ah well, something will come up! lol
Even if I do sell a novel this year (which, in all honesty who knows if it will happen), I am gonna have to put the money into savings - I had promised myself a new laptop, but I think it's more important that we have savings. Savings = getting into a new house. Though, whether we'll ever be able to do that with the one income is yet another story and I am too scared to actually look at the details! lol.
Ok, better get some work done before little one needs me again. I'd love to finish the 10K writing challenge today, so thats what I am going to push forward with, and then tomorrow get stuck into the editing once and for all.

catching up

I've decided that - I can do it. It's just a matter of putting in the effort when I can.
Today I cannot. I think I am going to have to accept that any day that it's just me and the little one all day I'm going to get hardly anything done at all. If I accept that, I don't have to spend ages beating myself up over getting so little done. What it means that I need to make up for that on the three days a week that she has care for a few hours.
Today, I wish that she was in care, I so need a little space. She refused to stay at home with Simon this morning when I had to get another blood test done, I even faked a phone call with the blood lab in which they 'advised' me that she couldn't come, she forced the phone into my hand and made me fake a call back to say that she would be coming with me.
I had some other stuff to say, but I desperately need to get her out of the house so we are going to go and visit the ducks at the park.

arg

Stupid Word...I can't seem to make it stick to an NZ dictionary for spell checking and whatnot. It's driving me nuts - specially because I keep missing the fact that it keeps flicking back to US dictionary because I am so used to reading US text books.
Does it matter a lot? If you are submitting globally, probably not. If you are submitting within NZ then it may do. We're not a big country, but we are a fairly proud one right, you'd think the least we could do is spell correctly for our own country.

I fail

At this writing gig anyways. I am feeling a lot of failing. Something always seems to come up. Big somethings. I find it hard to write when those big somethings hit.
Last month it was the wedding, a good big something. This month, well, I'm not going to go into it, but it's one of those sad and tragic somethings. I just hope that I can pull it together well enough to manage to complete even one of the challenges that I set myself this month.
Fingers crossed.
Little one is in care this afternoon and I shall attempt to focus myself.

Day 2

Day 2 did not go so well, everyone was home, people came and went, pain was consistent and so was my level of 'tired'.
So... Edmo: 1/50 hours
March Fantasy Madness Challenge: 2033.

I really do hate getting off to such a slow start. But I have to admit that weekends are never good for my writing. This coming week should be awesome though as Simon is working 2pm-10pm, there won't be the temptation to play games, I can instead focus on the writing. That's the plan anyways!
Getting my hair cut today and still deciding just how different I want to get it done. We shall see! Will post a pic if it's really very different lol.

Day 1

I know that technically it's day two, but there is no way I could post my daily accomplishments on the actual day they were done.
SO:
March Madness Challenge: 2033/10,000 words
NaNoEdMo: 30mins/50hours.

I didn't really do a lot on the editing thing yesterday, and am really hoping that I manage to get in there and nail some more time today, or I'll really start falling behind and the earlier I do that, the worse it always is for me.

Simon was called into work last night at 730 and didn't get home til 1am, so I had a fairly early night due to the pain in my back, read some, slept, slept badly though, waking up every time I tried to turn over. By 1am when he got home I'd developed a sore throat as well woohoo. So, tired, and sore this morning, not the best combination but I will just have to make it work for me.
Oh, had a really long chat with my brother last night who is dead keen on me writing the novel I'm editing for edmo into a script and made into a movie. LOL, he thinks I should sell the book and then sell the movie, it's so lovely when your loved ones think you have so much potential.

And March is on!

It's here, it's here!!!
And I am tired.... lol I just realized about 15 minutes ago that it was actually the new month. Wooo, go go sleep deprived brain.
I went out with a couple of my friends last night, we had fun. I was sober and I still had fun, which is fantastic. We chilled at Sarah's for a couple hours, chatting, then went into town and played some pool, had a big of a boogie and then went down to the beach for a midnight swim. I was the only one who got in very far... lol the others just rolled their pant legs up and paddled. Admittedly the water was pretty dark, and there was a chilly breeze, the water was so nice tho! It's a very safe beach in the port though, it was refreshing, enlivening, took me back to my teenage years when anything was a possibility and ever suggestion was considered.
I think I'll be doing things like that more often.

Anyways.... I should really start something today! I have two weeks to write 10K, and in those two weeks I also need to get at least 25 hours of editing done. My brain isn't functioning well enough to be able to do the math there - other than to suggest that today, I really need to get a good start! I think I will begin with getting a good start on the fantasy challenge, and then move onto some editing later this evening, we'll see how it goes.
We're having a roast post for dinner tonight, followed by some home made dessert, and then a DVD. I'm looking forward to it. It feels like awhile since we just kicked back and relaxed for an evening rather than trying to get things done.