Yesterday

Well, I didn't get a lot done yesterday - had been hoping for one of those super productive days but that was hijacked pretty early on. I spent half the day feeling miserable, and the other half sleeping!
So, now I need to attempt to play catch up on the script writing this weekend, and I have no idea how that is going to go. It's a completely different beast than novelling, it takes very little to fill a page and thats a good thing, because once you actually sit down and start you can get through a few pages pretty quickly. Totally works for me anyways, it's just a matter of actually sitting down and beginning, always the hard part.
I found the cheapest possible retail therapy yesterday. Well, more like I remembered it.
I really wanted to buy something - and there are a multitude of things that I could buy, but I have zero income of my own and never feel good about spending our families money on stuff which doesn't benefit anyone but me. Sometimes you just want to spend money tho, to own some things.
I've been using the library liberally lately, but I love to own books - so I went to the library and browsed through their selection of castoffs, they have some really good books in there (none of which I actually purchased....). I went for the more obscure, a book on the life and myth of Nostradamus, a book on the last of Britain's witches, one about the nature of evil in mankind, and a couple of fiction books by authors I don't know but looked interesting: Claudia, daughter of Rome; and The Wishing Game. These are all big books, hard covers other than one - and all for $2!!!! should keep me busy for awhile, and in future I'll have to remember to check out what they have there. I like some of the random things that libraries decide to discontinue using, and you just never know what you might find.

awesomeness

Today a couple of things have happened which are pretty cool. a) the woman who I got my dress from on trademe asked for permission to use some pics from my wedding of the dress on the new website they are making. So funny, lol but so cool! I of course said yes, being the obliging person I am (and thinking that it would be pretty cool anyways...)
Secondly, my florist called to ask if she could use one of the photos I emailed her from the wedding on postcards which she will have on her stand to give out to people at the wedding expo this year. What is MOST cool about this is that the photos were ones that my friend Tamara took, so I got to text her and tell her the great news. She seemed pretty thrilled that her photo is going to be printed and visible and taken home by people. I think it's so great, and hope that the cards mention she is the photographer - I think she's brilliant and I want everyone else to know it too lol.
Both the dress and the flowers were fantastic, but it's nice to know that other people consider them wonderful enough to display as advertising for their businesses and it's just extra super that in the process a lovely friend gets more of her work out in the world which will no doubt bring her further opportunities. I know that both parties were the ones who made the items in question, but the fact that they picked my stuff out of who knows how many others is just plain awesome.

and so it begins...

I actually started the script today, and it's going well! wooo
Unfortunately there is an interesting Dr Phil on, and I can't help but watch it.... I know, I'm a sucker, silly daytime TV!!!

Hello April

Did you know that my mothers given name was April? She's not been known by this for years, I hadn't even thought about that until now. It's her birthday today, I should really give her a call later.

So the scan went well! Baby is all good, 1.7cms long, right where it should be, with a nice strong heart beat.
It has a beating heart, I could see it. I can't even begin to put into words how that felt, such a profound surreal thing.
So it's all good on that front.

I haven't started writing my script yet. I fully intend to! I will! But maybe not today. Every time I lie down I think about all the things I want to write. Every time I get out of bed, I feel tired and exhausted and want to go back to bed lol, vicious annoying cycle that is.
I scribbled down a beginning for a new story - not entirely sure whether it will be novella or novel length. I had been lying in bed thinking about what made the novella I wrote in January so much fun and had this new idea, which kind of stemmed from the last novella, but isn't the same. I could make it a sequel, hell I might even at this point I'm not sure. Will need some more thinking about it, but at least I am excited about something right. Something to do with writing.

The whole editing thing got me down, I know that. I wasn't having fun, I killed my buzz. I'll confess that it was hard work, not initially but once I realized everything that needed to be done it seemed like hard work and I had no energy. I mean I still have very little energy but I am beginning to feel a little more alive. I know it wasn't just about the novel, it was early pregnancy, lol at least I have that. The first pass at editing was actually fun, and relatively easy, it was the more in depth stuff that I just didn't have the focus for - I am pretty sure that after April, either in May or June I will get back into it and get it done, I want that thing out in the world looking for a home well before the end of the year.

So this is me. Back with a little more focus, a little more hope, a little more energy and some drive.

Script Frenzy

It just kind of hit me that the start of April is just days away now. And I haven't lifted my pen to outline my script or anything - strangely, when writing a script I DO outline, where as I don't really (not beyond the first half of the book anyways) while I am writing a novel.
I'm not sure why this is. It's something I'm definitely going to have to think about during the next week or so.
My idea is old, so old, and... whats the best word to describe it? Designed to make the viewer feel uncomfortable. Written so that you are not entirely sure whether the main character is a good guy or a bad guy, or just you know, an every day guy, the kind of guy you might be sitting next to in the movie theatre.
I'm looking forward to finally seeing it come to fruition.
While cleaning out the cupboards in this room yesterday I came across my folder from my script writing paper, and the last script I wrote, all of which is now sitting on my desk waiting for me to go through again and get my head into the script writing zone.
I'm very aware of the fact that I failed nanoedmo this month. I don't want to fail another challenge. And I know I'm tired, and growing a baby, and feeling sick and all that jazz but sometimes that just doesn't seem like enough reason to fail. So I'm going to do better in April.

But for now, a coffee, or maybe a nap. (wow, I've only been up for two hours and I'm already thinking about a nap...)

Ultrasound #1

I think I forgot to mention that I FINALLY got my appointment letter for an ultrasound. Monday 31st, 2.30pm. Not that far to go now, have been feeling quite nervous/anxious about it, knowing that it will either confirm that everything is going ok (and give a better idea on due date) or give me bad news. While there is nothing at all to suggest that the news is going to be anything other than good, the initial Dr's appointment where she freaked me out and told me she thought it was abnormal sits constantly in the back of my mind. It'll be great to know one way or the other, but I'm still going to be nervous about it until its over with.

Trashing The Dress

Except that it's really not trashed! lol it should really be called 'doing unconventional things in wedding dresses'.
Here are some of the shots from the afternoon, not all of them by any means. The black and white ones seem to go a bit funny when I make them smaller, so it takes ages to upload them original, the colour ones don't seem to have the same problem so much, very odd. Ah well, here they are lol.